statistically failed

if only
you knew that
two plus five equals seven

but
what I did plus what you're doing
won't make it even

clueless

to write what I think

every night

or to write not

to tell what I should not

or what I thought 

the answer is not yet

for what is not

neither I know right

belum jodoh

she just made a crazily big loud crowd. without me in it.
I've been good all the way, till I knew how happy they were.
I'm not okay. I missed her. I missed the crowd. I missed the chance.

I'm teary. just like her when she sang all too well in the crowd.
I've been played my all-of-her-song playlist over months.
no, it didn't work. as if I didn't know that at the first place.

see you, someday.
make sure you'll come again. I'm counting on you.
I love you.

legitimate certain parts

wasn't it easier in lunchbox days?
always a bigger bed to crawl into
wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything
and everybody believed in you?

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did something you can't speak of
but at night you live it all again
you wouldn't be shattered on the floor now
if only you had seen what you know now then

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wasn't it easier in your firefly-catchin' days?
when everything out of reach someone bigger brought down to you
wasn't it beautiful runnin' wild 'til you fell asleep
before the monster caught up to you?

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time turns flames to embers
you'll have new Septembers
every one of us has messed up too
minds change like the weather
I hope you remember
today is never too late to be brand new