the night

finally, I know how it feels to cry over your chest, to talk about nothing and everything, and to lean on your shoulder. I found my man in a boy I fell for. I found my self still in my past, when he told me I've always been his. it's a long road to walk on, but we're gonna try to make it worth fighting for. it's such a relief for me to find my own therapist. I'll let my self do the catharsis.

escape from reality

itu kamu. tempat berlindung dan bersembunyi dari riuhnya kehidupan. waktu dimana aku lupa masih ada kenyataan yang menunggu ku jalankan. semu yang menjadi selimut temporal dari dinginnya dunia luar. 

itu kamu. ruang tempatku berhenti dari lari.

itu kamu. tujuan akhir dari pelarian.

iya kamu. pelarian dari kenyataanku. dunia baru tanpa beban berat menunggu.

boleh kusandarkan tubuh ini sejenak padamu?

mungkin

have you ever felt like your body heat getting warmer, goosebumps all over your body and a moment of pain right in your heart? I didn't know what was that, I didn't feel like angry. it was something more than an anger. maybe I was just disappointed. my kind of disappointment.

cause when you are fifteen ...

you take a deep breath and you walk through the doors

it's the morning of your very first day

and you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while

try and stay out of everybody's way

it's your freshman year and you're gonna be here

for the next four years in this town

hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say

"you know, I haven't seen you around before"

cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
you're gonna believe them
and when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out

well, count to ten, take it in

this is life before you know who you're gonna be

fifteen

you sit in class next to a readhead named Abigail

and soon enough you're best friends

laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool

we'll be outta here as soon as we can

and then you're on your very first date and he's got a car

and you're feeling like flying

and your momma's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one

and you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends

when the night ends

cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you

you're gonna believe them

when you're fifteen and your first kiss

makes your head spin 'round

but in your life you'll do things greater than

dating the boy on the football team

but I didn't know it at fifteen

when all you wanted was to be wanted
wish you could go back
and tell yourself what you know now

back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday

but I realized some bigger dreams of mine

and Abigail gave everything she had to a boy

who changed his mind and we both cried

cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you

you're gonna believe them

and when you're fifteen, don't forget to look back before you fall

I've found time can heal most anything

and you just might find who you're supposed to be

I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen

your very first day

take a deep breath, girl

take a deep breath as you walk through the doors

got no escape

I'm done with hugging anyone who needs comfort. so what's next?

wishing I could get some?