never

Never once I thought that at some point in my lifetime, the world would turn upside down in front of me. Until he proved me wrong. I was drowning the second i knew what he did. My life was never be the same. I never knew how it felt to be on the lowest ground until that day. And now, I'm struggling to bring my self back to the surface.

when life gets real

well, life must go on
my friends, one by one
they're gone
life is not simple anymore
since I dont have
many companions around

growing up sucks
I have to deal with stuffs
wish I could still have them
to give their hand
when I cant decide
whats food for dinner tonight

pretty much sums up my life

just in case

when somebody asks your opinion, make sure to give them your best. because it means your opinion matters to them. 

thank God

there are times when you want to thank God because you have such good friends.
sometimes you wonder why did you feel so alone,
sometimes you wonder why did you have to feel like that,
sometimes you forget to ever had those thoughts,
when you're around them.
laughing.
talking.
listening.
mocking.
playing.
caring.

and sometimes you wonder
why did you never give a damn.

"Sometimes, when you're mad, you have the right to be mad. 

But you don't have the right to be cruel"

somewhere from tumblr

as much as I tried to write, my fingers were always back to the backspace button

I don't know how and why, since I had trouble too with conversations

I wanted to tell things, writing, talking, anything to get rid of these emotions

but no, it seems like I do not even have a good story to begin with

but mine is not good enough to be listened

I love to see people surrounded by their family
watch them smile as their parents wave a goodbye
listen to them talking about their lifetime
laugh at their fathers joke or ridiculous story
smile as they started to complain about mother
asking about how their brothers and sisters are
cause I'd like to tell one

in this dull afternoon

all I need is a little laughter
talk about things that doesn't matter
college, ghost, movies, history but not lover
i love how those things make me smile a little wider

i like to hear them talking
as for a little while I can escape from my life
i love their face of questioning
once i started to talk about something else

and I ended up got laughed at